KINGS BLEED TOO

Dad has been sober from drugs for 27 years of his life. His son is 30 years old. My Superhero. My King. My idol; been imperfect, been in pain. He's been dealing with issues of loneliness, abandonment, self-worth, depression, and identity. Dad went on to have 4 sons. All 4 of them different, like the 3 different Mothers who birthed them. One of them, like his Father is, like his Mother is, was always into something. He sang in the church choir. He played the lead role in all the school plays, and always stood out whenever he had a ball in his hands.

He always kept a journal, just like his Mother. He was always writing/expressing his voice thru scribbled words only he could read. These days he still writes, as does his Mother. 30 years of pain. 30 years of joy. 30 years of tears. This is his story so far. Kings Bleed Too. Welcome to his fears.

WHY DO YOU WORKOUT SO MUCH?

  Run = Therapy

Run = Therapy

Everyone doesn't care about everything, you know?  There are a number of people in this world who genuinely don't identify, or for that matter care, about the notion of fitness.  And to be honest with you, I get it.  As a runner, personal trainer, former college athlete, and high school football coach, I see how someone who doesn't partake in such activities frequently, would ask someone like me "Why do you workout so much"?  It's a valid question.  You see, fitness for some is only a job, a responsibility--maybe even a burden. For some, fitness is painful, or even a space that highlights insecurities. For others fitness is fun, and space for positivity and glory.  Different strokes for different folks I guess.  

  Boxing with Tracy G.

Boxing with Tracy G.

The one thing I can often rely on is fitness, and how it helps me develop mental toughness--resolve.  You see, I don't always make the right calls.  My choices and decisions throughout my life have been questioned, doubted, judged, and even gotten me kicked out of the house.  It's tough trying to live your life free of consequences--in fact it's impossible.  For the most part, we hope that the choices we make lend themselves to positive outcomes instead of traumatic, negative ones.  No one is perfect, so what happens when ones character comes into question?  How will you deal with the pressure and scrutiny of being "the bad person" or the one with the "unpopular opinion"?  Coming from a young man who knows what it's like to disappoint his family and loved ones and having dealt with the pressures of trying to live a morally clean life, fitness helped me build character.  For everyday I spent in practice, or for every lap/sprint I ran as kid, I was developing the mental toughness that would help me deal with the inevitable shortcomings that waited for me in my uncertain future. 

Now don't get me wrong, I am fully aware of the health benefits that come along with maintaining a healthy/fit lifestyle.  But for me, for Percell Alfonzso Sean Brandon Dugger, the reason why I workout so much is because I LOVE THE MENTAL TOUGHNESS that is developed during the process of exercising.  Yes, I like how I look shirtless. Yes, I appreciate a nice compliment about my physical appearance. But none of that helps me sleep at night.  None of those experiences come in handy when I find myself in a questionable situation, or when i'm mourning the loss of a friend, family member.  None of those moments help me reflect on situations and examine where I may have had a misstep. For me, exerting myself physically, then mentally pushing myself to go harder in whatever exercise I'm doing is not JUST 11miles, its therapy and it's peace of mind..

 

~Stay True To The Good