LIVING IN QUEENS, but dying every time I looked in the mirror.
Being in LOVE, but Knowing I was miserable.
Totaling a Lexus on the Belt Pkwy, and waking up to no one coming to see me in the hospital.
I remember sleeping in Jason's car.
Sleeping in the gym of my ex girlfriends Buffalo loft. Wouldn't ask her to stay over bc...pride.
Not asking for help. I remember not listening to my mother say "Come home".
Getting punched by a women I loved.
Failing my 7th grade biology class, a marking period after I received an A.
Feeling like I had to lie about my life, so that I could fit in.
Telling someone I love, that that they're my best friend, but I can't be with them.
Seeing my mother lay in pain, and having to clean her bc the nurses at Coney Island Hospital sucked.
Praying for money.
I remember Coach Ruben Sanchez.
I remember my father, and his journey.
Jenay and Jhonei, and why they're both important.
I'll never forget Aunt Marry.
I remember fighting falling in love.
Now I love.
Now I understand the lessons.
I'm not there yet, but I've grown.
I'm happy. I'm content. But more importantly, I remember. The good, the horrific, the beginning.
The pain, the losses.
The hard way.