KINGS BLEED TOO

Dad has been sober from drugs for 27 years of his life. His son is 30 years old. My Superhero. My King. My idol; been imperfect, been in pain. He's been dealing with issues of loneliness, abandonment, self-worth, depression, and identity. Dad went on to have 4 sons. All 4 of them different, like the 3 different Mothers who birthed them. One of them, like his Father is, like his Mother is, was always into something. He sang in the church choir. He played the lead role in all the school plays, and always stood out whenever he had a ball in his hands.

He always kept a journal, just like his Mother. He was always writing/expressing his voice thru scribbled words only he could read. These days he still writes, as does his Mother. 30 years of pain. 30 years of joy. 30 years of tears. This is his story so far. Kings Bleed Too. Welcome to his fears.

WRK + Bible Study Notes 2.28.18

9 Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. Joshua‬ ‭1‬:‭9‬

Wed Feb 28th 2018

Questions Answered

Jairus comes to Jesus bc he has a need. Jirus was a Pharisee (their purpose was to destroy Jesus). Jesus demonstrates compassion bc he realizes: The need of a person has more value than the individual. 

How does gratitude play a role in Jairus' actions?

Gratitude: the feeling you get when someone blesses you (step 1). Go on to be a blessing to someone else (step 2, paying it forward). Not merely in being grateful. The energy flows. If not, one is not grateful.

Compassion: The process that notices, feels, senses, makes senses, makes sense then acts or takes action to alleviate the sufferings of someone else. 

Jairus was a Pharisee. He belonged to a group of people who wanted to destroy Jesus. Upon his daughter getting sick, he went to Jesus and asked him to save his daughter's life. Jesus (being omniscient God in the flesh) knew what he wanted. He healed his daughter and Jairus went on to spread the gospel to all of the people in the 10 cities (Decapolis).  Jesus could have been petty. Imagine if someone, who tried to destroy me, then needed me to help them. Would I be christ like in my actions, or nah? 

WRK

Last week I was able to treat my dad to dinner for his birthday. He is 59 years young, and everyday I spend around him, I learn more about myself. I am forvever grateful for the relationship that I have with my parents.

HAPPY BDAY BLACK MAN

ALSO LAST WEEK, I RODE THE BUS TWO HOURS TO GO SEE SOULECTION IN PHILADELPHIA WITH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS, DAVID ROSE. WE HAD A GREAT TIME. I EVEN WORE REGULAR CLOTHES. LOL IT FELT A LITTLE STRAGE GOING TO PHILLY AND NOT BEING THERE TO C SOMEONE, BUT TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS. SPEAKING OF HEALING, I WAS ABLE TO SPEAK WITH EM RECENTLY AND LIKE, I DIDN'T FEEL ANYTHING. THAT WAS PROGRESS. FOR A MIN, I WAS BOTHERED BY THE IDEA OF HER. BUT WHEN I WENT TO DROP OFF SOME EQUIPMENT AT HER PLACE AND PICKUP SOME STUFF I LEFT THERE, NOT ONCE DID I FEEL ANYTHING. IT WAS, YOU KNOW, REGULAR. 

IT FEELS GOOD TO BE AT PEACE WITH THE STATUS OF CERTAIN RELATIONSHIPS. STILL UNEASY WITH OTHERS, BUT THINGS GET BETTER EACH DAY.  

10+ YEARS

SPEAKING OF GOOD FEELINGS, I AM COVERING CBS SPORTS MARCH MADNESS MEDIA DAY NEXT WEEK! I AM INTERVIEWING SOME PRETTY AMAZING PEOPLE AND I JUST WANT TO THANK GOD FOR LOOKING OUT FOR ME. I'M ALSO ABLE TO PROVIDE FOR MY FAMILY IN A GREATER WAY WITHOUT HAVING TO LIMIT MY OWN GOALS BECAUSE OF MY WORK ETHIC. I RECENTLY SPOKE AT A HIGH SCHOOL, AND BEGAN MENTORING MY COUSIN ZANIYYAH AND HELPING HER EXECUTE THE VISION SHE HAS FOR HER BUSINESS. I LOVE NIYYAH, EXCEPT WHEN SHE'S TEXTING MY EX'S SMH #BADMOVE.

ME + CLIENT/SISTER TRACY

MY MARCH IS PRETTY BOOKED. I AM INTERVIEWING WNBA LEGEND CANDACE PARKER AND SOME OTHER HIGH PROFILE NBA PLAYERS AND ANALYST THIS MONTH, AS WELL AS A PHOTOSHOOT AND MY FIRST RACE OF 2018. I AM RUNNING THE NYC HALF MARATHON ON MARCH 18TH. NOT TO MENTION THAT MY AAU HEAD COACHING DEBUT KICKS OFF THIS MONTH. WE HAVE A NUMBER OF GAMES IN PHILLY, SOUTH JERSEY, CENTRAL JERSEY, DC, CHICAGO, LONG ISLAND AND ATLANTA. GOING TO BE A LONG SPRING WITH THIS MOVE TOO, BUT GOD GOT ME.

BEEN SPENDING MORE TIME GETTING TO KNOW MY CLIENTS IN A DIFFERENT WAY THESE DAYS. AND FUNNY ENOUGH, THEY ALL SAY THAT I'M DIFFERENT FROM LAST YEAR. I GUESS YOU HAVE TO LOSE SOMETHING TO GAIN EVERYTHING YOU NEEDED? I DUNNO, I JUST KNOW THE VIBE AND MINDSET OF ME IS INTENTIONAL AND PURPOSEFUL. STARTING TO MOVE PAST REGRET AND LIVE IN MY TRUTH. STARTING TO VALUE MYSELF AND MY HEART MORE. ME AND KOHL JUST HAVING A GREAT TIME OUT HERE. HE'S A GREAT CLIENT AND A GOOD FRIEND. TRACY IS RUNNING MORE, BUT ALSO HELPING ME GET MY IDEAS EXECUTED. PODCAST WITH SEAN AND AMBER IS SET TO EXPLODE. REALLY PROUD OF MY TEAM. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S COMING TOGETHER SO NICELY. 

I REALLY MISS CERTAIN ENERGIES, BUT I AM LEARNING TO C AND MOVE IN GOD'S PURPOSE FOR MY LIFE. THINGS DON'T ALWAYS ADD UP OR MAKE SENSE, BUT GOD'S LOVE AND PURPOSE IS ALWAYS IN PLAY. 

STAY TRUE TO THE GOOD